i'm just acting....

in ur eye i'm hapi nw....but i'm not...n i doesnt want to...i knw if i love u hui bi ai ta xing ku....i dont knw if u stil hav feelings against me...bt i'm not ready to knw the ans bcoz i noe it doesnt worthed...when i knw u got ur result...i was nervous...lu told mebout that and i knw u wil b sad....i really wanna an wei ni but i dunmo u neeed that or not haiss.......myb she wil b with u.....


i miss you........

i ignore u??

u keep talkin bout frenz...i dun wanna b fren...i need more than tat...u r the second one who make me cry lyk tat after her....i dun wan lyk tis...T.T
really dun wan...i knw tis is selfish...but u duno the truth...i cant betray her so i rejected you...its not i lyk other ppl...sha tel me u r lyk the ppl tat can wait for a long time...las time i decided to let susan let go her feelins against u den i can b wit u....after 1 1/2 month...susan let go liaw...den i wanna ask u i stil hav chance o not but den i ask sha how's bru she told me u r wit "her"it was hurt...i thought u wil wait but u didnt...sooooooo disapointed that time...mayb i made the wrong choice...i scolded u bcoz contacting wit u wil juz hurt me...not only tat u keep tellin me bout frenz....u really dunno how i feel....u juz keep saying things tat hurt me n u dont realize it.....it is not ur fault...my bad...all bcoz of me...actually i'm the one whose hurting myself...u dun hav to understand wat am i thinkin bout...u rmb the time my mum dun wan us to b frenz...my heart was aching...i ever think to die buti din...really lonely here...i'm acting to b hapi but i really dont....i dun care wat ppl think n say...i jz wana knw wat u think...how u feel do u really lyk her???i saw ur pm las tim...T.T u keep saying u liao jie me but u dont....u really dont.....n u dun hav to bcoz u onli think of her....


u only think of her.....T.T~~

what should i do??

since yesterdy..i cant sleep well...i sleep bout 4 smthin..haiss...i've done many wrong things.i feel sorry for her...my mum knew smthin...she said bout zien n sha and start scolding...T.Tknot mea?normal n les oso same marxx...haiss....
we're best friend and i dun wanna hide things from you...i think u duno what am i thinkin bout...i dun wanu to b hurt agen~sorry...haiss....duno wat to say...we're goin genting in 2 day times~i realise tat i'm missing u damn hard...i duno y am i lyk tis..tody we wnt to parkson~gt shuffel competition thr....i keep thinkin of u when i'm watchin them dancing..."sob"haiss...i regret tat i i let a nice guy go~y i make this big mistake~regret rgret regretT.T....tis is the third time i feel so sad~haiss...=.=i'm so stupid...really stupid...what shoud i do??help me arhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


i love you.......

i'm sorry~T.T

i saw her blog today...i realise that i'm stupid...i'm really a jerk...what should i say?i hurt her so much and i doesn't knw it...she wrote many..my tears burst out immediatly...she treat me nicely i and rejected her..i'm not a humanT.Twhat have i done?i promised susan i will help her kap u...and i failed...ang i fall in love with you...i fell lyk betraying her....i tot u sy u wil wait bt nw u r with her...i'm sorry bout everthing i've done sworrry bout that..i'm really regret...T.Ttears can't stop running down my face..i really duno wat to do~i pushed u away bcoz i m scared...i'm suffering alone in this lost town~frenz here aren't impotant at all~thy're fake...really fake...i dun need dem~i really wanna go home...i want my frenz bak...bt if i go bak...i wil watch u b wit her...i'll b alone again....myb dey'd forgotten me...our memories will b in the sea we went near ogdc...the thing i wrote on back stage is to forget 'her"i wasn't happy at all~i was all alone for one whole year...thats 365 days...i wish u all were here....i wanna go bak bt i dunwanna c u n her 2gther...i hate her not bcoz u b with her....i got other reasons i nvr lyk her...she hurt many ppl...many of my frens was cheated by her....i dun understand y u wanna b with her??anyway...i'm sorry...


forgive me~waitin...........